WEEK 39- Kids but no Career

My’ daughter asked me this week why I don’t go to work like daddy everyday.  She is keen to go to the after school club with her friends but doesn’t need to as I pick her up every day, which now seems to be to her dismay.  I explained to her that she is lucky to have me drop her and her brothers off to school and nursery every day and to be picked up as my mum couldn’t as she HAD to work as we were a one parent family and I had to make my own way there and back.  I did however get to see my mum drive past me in the morning on her way back from night shift and then again when I hopped into bed with her for an hour before she had to get up and leave again!  My daughter still doesn’t really see the up side for her but she will when she has children.  

WEEK 40-Last Chance Saloon

Well the weather is closing in and it is dark by about 4pm which means I really feel like putting the kids to bed by 5pm but as this can’t happen then I will just have to have a glass of wine earlier than usually scheduled.  My business plan is motoring along nicely with all the webspace purchased and my web developer partner man starting work this week.  It is really scarey though having to deal with accountants, lawyers, business plan developers etc and forking out money that you hope you will see again.  I have had a business before but that was sold and not on the same scale as this one and I am seeing this venture as a ‘Last Chance Saloon’ I suppose.  I don’t even want to think of it not happening as having to work for someone else is not even on my agender-maybe I will have to have another baby! That is not really going to happen either – well not with my husband anyway, as he takes great delight in telling me!

I suppose I am on a little downer at the moment and all negative thoughts are invading my brain.  I will blame it on the dreary Scottish weather or SIDS, that seems to be the reason alot of people are using these days and it is probably true.

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Week 41- FEEL LIKE A SCHOOL GIRL AGAIN!

This week has opened up my eyes alot to how I saw my high school days.  I loved it most of the time but like most gorky teenagers I had alot of days where I felt I didn’t fit in as girls are very clicky and bitchy and half the time I was probably a bad offender as well.  However my last year of high school in 1989 (oh how time flies!), was my worst as my friends turned 18 and I was still underage, with a tyrannically protective mother, and they were getting their driving licences and going to night clubs and drinking which created a whole new bonding experience for them. This made me feel like an outsider and my best friend became one of those girls and I then was relegated to some black hole that didn’t have a best or close friend.  Those awful feelings have stayed with me for the past 20 years and only earlier this year did I get a chance to vent them on the girl who I wholly blamed for them.  I got in contact with her when our parents met up and exchanged our details.  Karma unfortunately bit her on the arse the year after our final year of  high school and funnily enough karmic revenge doesn’t feel that good and her and I are on good terms now and when I talk to her it really is as if we are those teenage kids again-I love it.  Best of all our 20 year re-union has just been. I wasn’t able to go as firstly I didn’t know it was happening as the organiser wasn’t able to get hold of me and secondly I now live on the other side of the world. 

Week 42- Italian Stallion will have to wait!

Last week, which is when this post was due, was another eye opener for me. I have taken on too much as something has had to be ditched and yes it is my Italian studies or as we like to say ‘Mio non e studentessa di italiano’. This is a shame but doing it twice a week was giving me a facial twitch due to the anxiety of having to study everyday and fit everything else in, so it was either that or stop feeding the kids as I didn’t have enough time for both!!  I don’t feel like a drop out however I won’t be chatting up any Italian Stallions in the near future- boo hoo!

Week 43- Too cool for school- so it seems!

This week I have had a lightening bolt about one possible path I have mentioned with regards to a new career.  I have decided that becoming a Speech Therapist is no longer on the cards.  Just going to Italian classes twice a week has shown me the time committment you need to give to studying and that is only for an adult education class.  Adding many more subjects, exams, essays etc over a 4 year period is ludicrous with 3 kids and a Husband to play and look after.

So I suppose that makes my future choice a little clearer but it also means that I am studying Italian for fun now as it was a precursor to getting into Uni.  Oh well this is what this time is for and at least now I can concentrate more on the other options including the business plan that I have been hatching. I now have a business partner and am off the business enterprise on Friday for formal talks with them.  Really very exciting!  I would love for this to really work and in 5 -10 years be able to support my family and let my Husband decide what he would like to do for the rest of his day that he actually enjoys and not just does. 

I will let you know about Fridays outcome then.

xx